I am winding down my epic 2-day meltdown. I don't really want to get into it, but it involves sudden financial loses that involve certain individuals that I haven't spoken to/heard from in over a year... neat-o. Been a rough couple of days, today I even cried my little heart out on the way to work... not my ideal start to the day. But I've got some things sorted out, and I'm hoping that things will turn around and soon. Does anyone else make this many colossal mistakes? Sometimes it sure seems that I'm doing my darndest to fit in my fair share in the shortest time span possible.
Then there was the Nexus application... My boss asked me to apply for a Nexus pass as we do a fair amount of travel. "No problem", I said, thinking it would be an easy 15 minute form online. No dice. My nomadic ways have finally caught up with me, those who know me know that I move a lot. I also change jobs, a lot. Nexus requests all jobs and residences over the last FIVE years, which is easy for normal people. Let me paint a quick picture, I don't measure time in years, I measure it in jobs and apartments (and boyfriends). Five years in real world time = 11 jobs & 7 homes (and 3 boyfriends, I think) in Alexis time... that little equation took me two hours of cross-referencing old ROE's and tax forms to get it all straight. Good Lord! That was a little sobering to see that on paper. I need to sit still for once, no wonder I feel scattered... I never get settled! And I found all sorts of letters and emails and such while going through all this paperwork, some really embarrassing and inappropriate behaviour has plagued my late teen's and early twenties. I was one angry little brat! It is quite the reality check to see those kinds of things in hind-sight... wow. Those who know me now, know I'll say damn near anything... picture that with a snarky, chip-on-my-shoulder twist... sounds delightful, doesn't it? I am grateful for the family and friends that saw through all those emotions that I didn't know how to deal with and stuck around! You've made me the better person I am now.
I'll be moving again in September/October... After that move, I'll start slow, but maybe try to stick to one job AND one apartment for three years. I know, some serious goal-setting here... but look at my track record, this will be a challenge. I can do it! It all boils down to me being happy with me, then I won't have to distract myself so much! That is enough soul-baring for one evening... onto the picture. I am house-sitting with these two cute little kittens, and one sat still just long enough for me to take a picture. Nothing spectacular, but try getting a kitten to sit still! A challenge at best... kind of like me.
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